Chrome Chronicles is going into hibernation

You may have noticed there has been a distinct lack of blogs from me for a few months. This is because after years of chaos and non-stop busy-ness your girl is finally resting!

As mentioned many times previously, my perfectionist mindset of being on the go constantly and trying (more like failing to be honest) to not only achieve but be an expert in everything I set my mind to kicked my arse big time. I noticed my mental and physical health starting to dip in late summer 2022 but as usual, I ignored warning signs and pushed on, figuring my brain and body would sort themselves out in the meantime. That was a daft thing to do as by January 2023, burnout finally arrived. And it fucking sucked.

I’ve spoken extensively about what that bout of burnout felt like, so I’ll spare the details this time, however I’m happy to announce that the worst of it has passed. I no longer feel overwhelming bouts of anxiety when I leave the house and I have started to find time for the little things I love doing again. The fun shit that always gets pushed to the bottom of the pile to make time for “important” tasks is now sat firmly on top of the pile where it shall stay. I even managed to get a pumpkin carved and my living room decorated for Halloween, which is something I’ve always ran out of time to do in the past.

However, whilst I have moved through the darkest part of this phase of burnout, I am not out of the woods just yet. There’s still a lot of mental fog that needs to clear, and it’s not going to clear if I keep piling the pressure onto myself to get things done. It’s going to clear by giving myself breathing space, not suffocating myself with my own expectations and tasks. This means that in the meantime, Chrome Chronicles is on a much needed break.

Does this mean that I am quitting pole, deleting my blog and off to live a life of solitude in the mountains? Not yet. I love pole dancing and have lots of workshops coming up that I’m genuinely excited to attend. My love of writing is still very much a part of me too, it’s just having a little nap for the time being.

Over the past few months I’ve had plenty of ideas floating around in the old noggin about things I would like to do with this blog, but I cannot achieve any of it just yet. I need time to let go of the deadwood I’ve collected and for the aforementioned fog to clear (fuck me this blog is turning into an explosion in the metaphor factory), before I can begin to dedicate the time I need to Chrome Chronicles. I have grown quite attached to my little blog over the years, and chucking out random posts willy nilly with wasn’t giving it, or it’s lovely readers, the deserved level of attention.

I’m not sure when the blog will be up and running again. I’m not giving my hibernation period any sort of end date, posts will emerge again when I’m good and ready. If you follow Chrome Chronicles IG account, you’ll see my various dance related activities there. In the meantime go follow the badass Blogger On Pole. She is forever fighting the good fight in every way possible and I legit want to be her when I grow up (lets just ignore the fact that she’s probably younger than me).

I’ll be back at some point, I promise, but in the meantime, I’m off to enjoy my winter.

Eilish x